Childhood Memories-The Bedroom
IN TEXAS- SIX YEARS OLD
I am living with my adopted parents, but I am not adopted yet. I think the adoption fight has started. My adopted father works nights at a local refinery. After his shower I go lay down with him. He is in his underwear in bed. He is fat and smells in a not good way despite his shower. He fondles me and has me play with his penis under his underwear with my hand this time. My young mind seems to block out a lot about the bedroom and that big to me bed.
After he is done with me he tells me to go and leave him alone so he can sleep. As if I was there on my own free will to please him with my little body. I know there were many many more times in that bed (and other places).
My adopted mother did not know. Please, reader do NOT blame her. I haver have never, not as a child, teen, or as an adult. In my little mind it was a stable place to be. I did not have to worry about being fed or where I would be the next day. My little mind and my my body already been through a lot and my mind was very mature for her years. I thought about the basics in life at six years old.
Posted on January 20, 2011, in 6 years, Childhood memories and tagged 6 years old, Childhood Memories. Bookmark the permalink. 9 Comments.
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All I can say is wow, I am so sorry there are those in the world who have suffered so much like yourself.
Another case of the system letting innocent children down.
Reading this it seems they actually did adopt you, OMG! not really the words I want to use but I’m so saddened to read this, so shocked and sickened but I also admire you so much for being brave enough to share your story. x
Yes, They DID adopt me.
It saddens me so much to think of you as a young girl, defenseless and with no advocate at all. It is such a shame. I hope your adoptive mother was a kind person who gave you the love you deserved and needed (even if she was oblivious to the abuse taking place in the household).
She had her mental issues, but she did love me and did her best to take care of me.
I have no words…
It just makes me sad and mad as hell!!!
Very brave you are and have been.
I just want to say that I hope that somewhere down your road of life that this horrible happening came to be found out and your adoptive ‘dad’ (which I choke on typing that, because any man that does that to a little girl doesn’t deserve that title) was punished to the fullest extent of the law! Something very similar happened to both of my children (their baby-sitter-a wife, husband and their then 13 y.o daughter). My son was 4 and my daughter was almost 3.
Patience
I can’t imagine a FAMILY being in on something that!! HOW HORRIBLE!! I hope your children’t don’t remember it, and if they do they don’t let it rule their life. <>
I’m overwhelmed with sadness for that little girl and admiration for what you’ve done with your life.